𝒞𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒾𝑜𝓉 @ch4r10t_tv@masto.anarch.cc

I've been wondering lately whether rage is all I have left. Sometimes it has felt as if there were times when only anger kept me going. My only counter to that feeling is that there are people who have carried me when I couldn't keep going, so I know compassion also matters.

New patron video is up! It's a very short essay about Little Women.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/june-2023-patron-85228383?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link

I've also already decided that next month's patron essay and possibly the following month's as well will be discussing even more women's literature, some american and some british.

I'm thinking it has to be the justpearlythings response, the next noah smith response or the black aragorn video, but all three will take some research, so we'll see as it all unfolds.

big joel response is scripted and done. gonna record, edit and schedule the upload tomorrow, along with the little women patron essay. the comes reworking the blade essay and deciding which other essay to upload in july.

is big joel a communist or a socialist? or just vaguely kind of left or liberal? it came up while I was writing and I kind of left it open but I do wonder

in other news the little women patron essay will be up soon, probably this weekend. going to try to finish the big joel response in that timeframe as well.

not sure if I'm ever going to finish/record/upload this response to CJ the X -- I really have a hard time navigating their views about art without being overly harsh. it feels like it would seem uncalled for in terms of negative energy. but sometimes you meet a perfectly fine person who says something about art that just makes you think, "hmmm, okay, well, you're sort of inhuman." like realizing a person you're talking to is the grim reaper. not evil. just kind of antithetical to life.

feeling hopeful about doing some literature reviews for the channel -- "review" more in the sense of analysis than scoring -- so I think this month's patron vid will be Little Women before I do anything spicy

have come up with several potential future media essay topics this month:

-Flight of the Dragons
-Young Sheldon
-The Brothers Lionheart
-The Lay of Leithian

all for another time I suppose

rewriting the blade video is also quite the project since I want to update my essay "voice" to better fit my channel "voice." if I ever publish this stuff in writing I'll probably have to edit through it again but that's fine.

been enjoying coming up with lots of video essay ideas. a few that have come to me in a week: why strange magic failed, disagreeing with big joel about avatar, skyrim challenge runs for the gaming channel, justpearlythings response about divorce

I don't understand needing comedy to be morally didactic. It feels like that's everything these days, and half the people who get upset at media or jokes with a certain morality just wish it had their preferred morality instead

finished with the iilluminaughtii response. working on re-doing the Blade video and writing out the responses to Big Joel and JustPearlyThings now. next month should be fun.

with that said I do want these to be at least somewhat unique so the stuff I'm trying I already know will mostly not work

I know people don't come to me for gaming content, if they come to me for anything at all, but I want to try some different stuff while I'm in this weird period

recorded some fun gaming segments today, feeling good about them. been wanting to do some gimmick videos for a while now.

Hello lovelies~