Hate/Despair
The only thing I can do right now is channel my anger and fears into action. The constant deluge of hate, the constant signals of the rapid acceleration towards war and death terrifies me and it makes me feel like a failure every time I see my loved ones fall into sadness because of this endless hate.
I am such a pale ghost of what I wish I was, of what I need to be. Most of the time I'm just desperately clambering together whatever I can to keep going forward. I had lofty dreams of being an "artist" but mostly what I do now is desperately try to get my message out by any means in the hopes that I can deter the worst outcome possible. I don't know that I'll ever be able to muster the brainspace to create anything artistically lasting...but maybe I can at least ensure the next gen of trans ppl can do so.
Hate/Despair
@DemonMama firstly, what you make is capital-a Art. You are creating something new and beautiful every time you turn the camera on. More importantly though, you provide a community space for thousands of people who otherwise wouldn’t have one. Being trans in this conformist culture is hard. Sometimes all you need is to see someone like you mirrored back- to know that your struggles are not yours alone. This is the role you fill for your people. Never doubt its value.
Hate/Despair
@nattiecat ;w; thank you, so much for this. It is extremely hard to gauge my accomplishments because there's seemingly always a wall of pure hate saying I'm damaging this or damaging that. Thank you for letting me into your perspective on this ;w;
