I'm happy for @DemonMama, I'm listening her video about the big W in Oregon for the trans community with Raptie. One step at a time.
Fanboys are hating in the comments of this PC Gamer article for the description mocking the amount of in-game currencies in Diablo 4 but its legit toooo much
Gold, Murmuring Obols, Seeds of Hatred/Red Dust, Aberrant Cinders, Grim Favors, Platinum (premium currency), and soon 2-3 MORE in-game currencies. This type of MMO-inspired design SUCKS. It turns off new players and it makes the game feel like a mess.
I have been riding dangerously close to burnout lately and its been a huge struggle.
This year has been a huge success for my channel. I just crossed 25 THOUSAND subscribers to my YouTube Show, people are loving my videos, and I feel that I've covered a lot of important topics and issues this year. Not only that, but I've somehow managed to reach a level of regularity with my content that most channels on youtube struggle with - a high quality video segment uploaded every single day with a unique, good-looking thumbnail.
My personal life has also been exceedingly busy. This year alone I've traveled an insane amount, mostly by road for various reasons. Southern California, Utah, Canada. About 3,500 miles on road trips to put a number to it.
So much rewarding experience in all that travel. I've had new foods, seen and recorded so many new birds (as many of you know, I LOVE birds + birdwatching), and I've started to delve back into interests I had to set aside in the past due to life circumstances throughout these travels.
It has, nonetheless been incredibly intense and emotionally taxing to do so much travel.
Lately I have found myself overwhelmed with fear and anxiety about "content". About how I can possibly keep up with the invisible boss of the algorithm. I keep finding myself slipping back into the work mentality that destroyed me in my early 20s, but minus the immediate tangible rewards and recognition.
The truth is, I can't please the algorithm. Not forever, maybe not even right now even WITH all the successes I've been having.
I'm proud of myself for keeping my streams and videos coming regularly this year and I realize I NEED to change my mental approach to this stuff or else everything my fans love me for will disappear from my work.
People love my show and my streams *because* I do things differently, because I talk about things in a unique way and present my ideas unlike anyone else.
Anyway, just needed to get these thoughts out somewhere I know they'll be appreciated. 🤘😈
Per the announcement from kolektiva that the FBI obtained unencrypted access to all of their database files via a raid:
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I have really enjoyed The Outer Wilds. I beat the main game last night and really loved the ending (though I have critiques for the final puzzle of the game!)
A really heartfelt, cozy and fun game with an intriguing core mystery and good if relatively easy physics gameplay and sciency puzzles.
Truly amazing soundtrack.
I started the expansion “Echoes of the Eye” last night and feel very strongly about it. New direction for visuals and music that is equally strong. Excited to beat the expac!
This year has been a year of truly breathtaking music discoveries. Every single year since ~2015 I have kept an on-going, chronological playlist of songs I discover and fall in love with. It lets me track my mood and my experiences via music, and also I can see which years I spent less time with music and which years I spent more.
This year has been a year of much incredible music. Everything from totally new bands I had never heard of, to killer video game and movie OSTs. Its been a good year for my playlist :)
In the last week and a half Ive played two games that couldnt be more tonally opposite: Citizen Sleeper, with its sadly sweet yet beautifully endless sense of hope, and Signalis, unforgiving and unrelenting in horror and heartbreak.
I can't help but feel my experience of each of the games was enhanced by the fact I played them in such proximity.
Both games grapple with dystopian settings rife with repression, exploitation, and severe dehumanization. In both games you play a character that is a sapient agent but denied recognition as a "human." Both games take place mainly in highly dangerous areas of mass exploitation - metal salvage yards for Citizens Sleeper and Mines for Signalis. Both games severely limit the tools with which you can fight back against those who wish you harm. And both games feature a biological clock - your body is breaking down in real time and there is no way to stop it.
Signalis offers no reprieve from the horror. It presents a wholly corrupted world from which there is no escape. A world in which the tomb we built for ourselves is already sealed and all we can do is bear witness to our own suffering and the suffering of the characters we meld with. In this way it is cautionary, it terrifies us into recognizing that our world could yet become so dark and reminds us to respect the depths of possible suffering.
Citizen Sleeper never shies away from depictions of horrific events. It's an incredibly politically charged game in which you play the whole game as a person with literally no legal rights. In order to survive, you must find the cracks in the systems that bind us and crush us, to slip through and ultimately try to thrive even in the shadows. Urging us to look closer at the world around us and to seize every potential for solidarity, Citizen Sleeper focused my attention on the lines still available to alleviate suffering and prevent future captivity.
Signalis sharpened pain and fear while Citizen Sleeper urged me to take solace in the tools still available to me.
Remarkably complementary games despite their complete tonal difference. I can't help but feel that I'll be thinking of Signalis and Citizen Sleeper both for a very long time to come.
Ive been resting up for the last few days after my last stream threw out my voice and I have watched SO MANY GOOD MOVIES
All Quiet on the Western Front
The Prince (technically a stage play in video form)
The Empire Strikes Back
Silent Hill (2006) okay this one isnt like GREAT but I still like it and its fun
cant wait to talk about them on stream once my voice is no longer lost lmao
I have so many opinons to share about Phantom Menace and Attack of the Clones on next stream once Im back home O.O
Our journey has been somewhat interrupted by weather and food poisoning :( doe got sick :((
Doing a lot better today thankfully after getting a day and a half of consistent rest! hopefully the return trip will go smoothly for us!
Just completed Star Wars: Jedi Fallen Order and I really enjoyed it. My review on yesterday's stream holds strongly.
I got 100% of all secrets, chests, and unlockables because I really did enjoy exploring the beautiful planets and getting the bits of lore. Proud of that :)
The exploration is very fun, the environments are really well done visually, and the boss fights are intense and engaging.
The weak spots are in late-game enemy variety, the extreme bugginess of the environment and collision detection, and the wasteful overuse of "sliding segments" and other "cinematic action" sequences.
The actual cinematics look really nice and I quite enjoyed them when I wasn't having to slide through an obligatory and incredibly easy mud or ice tunnel.
While the dialogue writing isn't perfect, and some of it is a *little* awkward, the themes of the story shine through very strongly and are built on throughout the games levels and dialogue. While the ending was very linear and the enemy variety had completely fallen off by the last 10% of the game, I actually quite liked the storyline conclusion and found it really endearing.
All in all, I enjoyed my experience with Star Wars: Jedi Fallen Order and will most certainly be giving Jedi Survivor a try when it comes out!
Being on the road and desynced from social media feeds for a few days was an incredible break. Returning back home and catching up has only further convinced me how stupid and useless these spaces are. Considering removing all feeds and simply using social media one-way for the most part. Putting out my thoughts and ignoring the algorithm trash input. I know for a fact the thoughts I choose to share raise the bar of post quality everywhere Im present.
The trash I see incoming is mostly bigotry or the most moronic discourse bait on the planet. deleterious to an extreme degree.
"Ozempic retails for about $900 a month if your insurance doesn’t cover it."
from the above article
It's wild, I talked on stream about a month ago about people abusing Ozempic, a perscription diabetes drug, for the purposes of rapid weight loss, but a major article just dropped about it and the entire article is just one giant documentary on the normalization of eating disorders in the United States.
Ozempic (and other "GLP-1" drugs) prompts your body into a repellant response towards food. As in, the thought of eating food makes you feel disgusted or sick, and eating food can often make you feel nauseous while on the drug.
The article explains how diabetics who NEED the drug are severely struggling to get it because so many people have requested prescriptions to help them lose weight, and that there is an entire class of people who all have no appetites because they're all getting weekly injections of Ozempic or similar drugs. They cant stop taking Ozempic because they will immediately regain the weight because the way the drug works is to MAKE FOOD REPELLANT TO YOU and when that effect goes away, none of your habits have changed.
The long-term side effects of Ozempic aren't heavily studied and its generally prescribed because, for diabetics, the effects can be life saving and are almost assuredly less dangerous than the negatives of diabetes.
And yet all over the country TONS of people are rushing to take the drug as a miracle cure for body fat, and reading the way people talk about it in the article...they literally talk about it as if the drug is purging them of sin.
The American psyche is so fucking broken.
I was barely chubby as a child and was ruthlessly bullied for it even by family members, so at this point I am well aware that people consider me a monster for being fat. Sometimes I feel like I don't always deal with the pain from that or the internalized fat hate all that well, but this article has reminded me just how far ahead of the pack I am.
American culture treats psych meds like they're the devil, they treat HRT like its this sinister injection you have to rely on forever, and yet you dangle weight loss in front of them and all of a sudden they're signed up for life no matter the cost, even if they're sick from it every day.
Americans hate fat people (themselves, usually) so much it literally breaks minds.
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A small congregation of exiles.