the other day i posted about thinking about how i want to dedicate my time moving forward - but i didn't really have an answer, and i still don't.
what i know is that i want to draw connections. i want to learn how things have been connected, both the "proper" connections and the connections others call "tainting". i want to see the connections between even disparate localities. i want to explore the gaps between translations. there are so many gifts out there, waiting to be found, waiting for a new connection to be drawn.
@eris this is me attempting to overcome my loss of wonder. i went through a series of understandings that led me into believing that the world was already understood, that things are what they are and are never anything else, and that it was all useless anyways because everyone dies, everyone suffers, everyone and everything has been successfully integrated into the capitalist machine.
now i can see how much salvage and translation is necessary to even pretend that everything has been "successfully integrated"
i've been burnt out too - but i realized i was building my own burnout. chasing what could never satiate me. pushing against immovable objects. it doesn't have to be like that.
@exiliaex I feel like engaging with similar things for me did restore a lot of that for me. And it makes me stop to look at the plants all the time when I’m walking around outside.
I'll definitely be keeping an eye out for your findings as you look for that sense of wonder again!