DemonMama @DemonMama@masto.anarch.cc

Its been forever since I posted on here, but I've continued to gather followers which feels really nice!

I just feel paralyzed by social media as of late. I have the posters urge, dont get me wrong! I have for a long time, but nothing seems worthy of saying *anywhere*. So I only post on youtube, but my youtube presence is limiting because its fucking youtube and everything has to be filtered through the lens of utilizing my stream time well and thinking about the audience I'm trying to build there and the TOS.

In short, social media fucking blows. I miss being able to have fun and post about shit and get into conversations about whatever

I'll figure it out in time I'm sure. But right now I have this terrible restlessness and its driving me nuts.

I've uploaded a video almost every single day of this year...what a wild year it has been

Fanboys are hating in the comments of this PC Gamer article for the description mocking the amount of in-game currencies in Diablo 4 but its legit toooo much

Gold, Murmuring Obols, Seeds of Hatred/Red Dust, Aberrant Cinders, Grim Favors, Platinum (premium currency), and soon 2-3 MORE in-game currencies. This type of MMO-inspired design SUCKS. It turns off new players and it makes the game feel like a mess.

I have been riding dangerously close to burnout lately and its been a huge struggle.

This year has been a huge success for my channel. I just crossed 25 THOUSAND subscribers to my YouTube Show, people are loving my videos, and I feel that I've covered a lot of important topics and issues this year. Not only that, but I've somehow managed to reach a level of regularity with my content that most channels on youtube struggle with - a high quality video segment uploaded every single day with a unique, good-looking thumbnail.

My personal life has also been exceedingly busy. This year alone I've traveled an insane amount, mostly by road for various reasons. Southern California, Utah, Canada. About 3,500 miles on road trips to put a number to it.

So much rewarding experience in all that travel. I've had new foods, seen and recorded so many new birds (as many of you know, I LOVE birds + birdwatching), and I've started to delve back into interests I had to set aside in the past due to life circumstances throughout these travels.

It has, nonetheless been incredibly intense and emotionally taxing to do so much travel.

Lately I have found myself overwhelmed with fear and anxiety about "content". About how I can possibly keep up with the invisible boss of the algorithm. I keep finding myself slipping back into the work mentality that destroyed me in my early 20s, but minus the immediate tangible rewards and recognition.

The truth is, I can't please the algorithm. Not forever, maybe not even right now even WITH all the successes I've been having.

I'm proud of myself for keeping my streams and videos coming regularly this year and I realize I NEED to change my mental approach to this stuff or else everything my fans love me for will disappear from my work.

People love my show and my streams *because* I do things differently, because I talk about things in a unique way and present my ideas unlike anyone else.

Anyway, just needed to get these thoughts out somewhere I know they'll be appreciated. 🤘😈

@SnowySecluse W I L D "debate" excellent clip hahah

@EmuAnon34 true Ive now done the final segment and I still think she got done dirty imo

@FawnOverFun ill never give in

@dolari sooooo goood

🇨🇦I HAVE UNDERGONE INTENSE CANADIFICATION AND EMERGED FROM THE OTHER SIDE 🇨🇦

The poutine was sick and so was the coffee

@alexis@alexisart.me will be continuing it next stream

I think some people might get mad at my Tears of the Kingdom review today. I really liked the game but it desperately needs critique. Too much unalloyed praise for a game that has some significant problems imo!

I have really enjoyed The Outer Wilds. I beat the main game last night and really loved the ending (though I have critiques for the final puzzle of the game!)

A really heartfelt, cozy and fun game with an intriguing core mystery and good if relatively easy physics gameplay and sciency puzzles.

Truly amazing soundtrack.

I started the expansion “Echoes of the Eye” last night and feel very strongly about it. New direction for visuals and music that is equally strong. Excited to beat the expac!

@olliethewobbly 🔥😈🤘🤘

@Agx04gtetra 😈😈😈

This year has been a year of truly breathtaking music discoveries. Every single year since ~2015 I have kept an on-going, chronological playlist of songs I discover and fall in love with. It lets me track my mood and my experiences via music, and also I can see which years I spent less time with music and which years I spent more.

This year has been a year of much incredible music. Everything from totally new bands I had never heard of, to killer video game and movie OSTs. Its been a good year for my playlist :)