ZiaNitori @ZiaNitori@masto.anarch.cc

i find someone wanting a sexual partner in the abstract to be similarly insane. sex is a conversation with another person and so many people seem to be entirely comfortable with getting off on small talk with strangers. how do so many people feel like their needs can be satisfied by a warm body that follows the rules? people are imbued with some special kind of magical power that can make objectively boring experiences into something enthralling that needs to be sought after endlessly apparently.

how does someone "want a partner" in the abstract? like how do you want a relationship in the abstract, how do you want someone that you dont even know? why is there some prescribed role you have in your life that you need a body to fill? if you want deeper and more substantial relationships in general in your life i get that, but that's not what's meant when "partner" is specified. a role is being referred to and it carries with it a set of expectations and behavioral rituals. what is desired is a compatible body that can keep up with the expectations, a body who's behavior is dominated by your will in some capacity. once this person moves into the relationship they wanted before, there's more that they want. maybe they want to be made to feel special, maybe they want to feel excited, a more ideal partner can be found in the mind and forced onto the actually existing partner at implied, and often obfuscated threat of breaking the social contract. they arent aware they're doing this and pointing this out to them would yield nothing except their unconscious mind finding a way out of the relationship sooner. at its absolute best a little bit of this kind of anxiety in a relationship can function like each person is pushing each other to be the best version of themselves that they can, but 99% of the time it's just two people just seeing how much they can dominate the others behavior until someone's unconscious realizes they're losing that battle and finds the first exit out.

literally everyone who has ever called yung a zionist, and i'd argue, all the people who saw that shit and didnt say shit about it is to some degree antisemitic. fascist politics are the politics of reading the room which is why nearly every coward is a fascist and every fascist is a coward

love to be reminded how antisemitic leftists are. they're been inundated with too many aggressive "free palestine" sloganeers and unconsciously know not to raise criticism when someone calls a random jewish person (who happens to criticize their antisemitism) a zionist. they know to back off and not take sides as soon as zionist is invoked and get wary of anyone who spends too long talking about antisemitism, especially anyone who talks about antisemitism on the left because they know that the charge of zionist is coming from leftists with more social capital. fucking cowardly little fascists

you've been taught to be dependent on this organism to survive instead of the environment around you, instead of the ecosystems that civilization sterilizes and metabolizes and it's not easy to learn these skills, because those of us that want to escape tend to be those who havent been able to fully integrate, often because we've made ourselves uncontrollable in some capacity. i learned to make my attention hard to capture and they gave me a diagnosis and medication for it as a kid, now as an adult, i have to unlearn this unconscious habit to have enough mastery over myself to learn these skills, to succeed in my escape. your antisocial behaviors, your hysteria, your inability to focus, your impulsiveness, your anger, your depression, your delusions are all beautiful and the only reason you have a chance at escaping the body of this beast because they allowed you to see it for what it is, but stopping there isnt enough. it has plenty of mechanisms to capture you if you dont keep moving, if you dont change to make these rigid automatic behaviors more flexible, more adaptable by your conscious mind, because nearly all of these things can be controlled by fear because that's the condition under which they were learned.

to follow up on the civilization is literally a living being post, i want to emphasize how literally i mean that. at one point single celled organisms grouped together by some initially accidental mechanism/circumstance that proved to be advantageous for their propagation and through time became so dependent on this arrangement, optimizing themselves solely for the survival of the greater organism than themselves. colony species represent yet another leap forward in the complexity of the organization of beings, and the same subjugation to the larger organism exists and will only intensify for mankind in civilization. civilization integrates bodies into itself through the control of incentives and the capture of attention (the dominant thing it works on being fear), it creates systems to optimize those bodies and destroy, kidnap and/or deincentivize the creation of bodies that dont provide advantage to it. nearly every religious and spiritual practice i've seen seems to be an unconscious attempt to gain favor with this beast by learning to perform some kind of servility, willingly offering up your mind and body to it to alleviate the distress that comes with captivity. nearly all political organization is just an attempt to create another beast to eat the current one from the inside out to gain advantage for some specific group within it's body often explicitly stating that it's goals are better for the function of leviathan (they'll use language like it being better for The People or some shit). morality is just another form of religion where Reason is used to dominate others into behaving in ways that are for the benefit of the whole. even more libertarian moral systems are just a way to see yourself as an individual agent with rights and responsibilities to others (not to offend them in any way that's Unjustified) because that's proved to be an incredibly effective tool of social control. if you do not wish to be captured you dont need a moral system for that, you just need to keep listening to the antisocial parts of you that they've been trying to beat out of you and just fucking run away. we all have urges in us to resist a cage, to evade captivity because we're only partially into this species's transformation into a singular being.

@exiliaex i'm really bad at keeping up with discord but i'll move the server up towards the top of my list so i might remember to check on it more. probably send the condensed info my way though <3

@DemonMama most of it is insanely obvious projection too

@exiliaex lmk what you find if you can remember to cause that's of interest to me too

@exiliaex so fucking based

@exiliaex i think there's a lot of power in storytelling in both helping find and empower those who wish to exit the beast and in helping, especially younger people, learn how to avoid it's clutches which is part of why i want to get into it so much more. i think one of the first places i want to start looking is native american stories because i have vague memories of them being some of the only obviously moralistic stories that i actually enjoyed that aspect of. i also think in general that working with whatever indigenous communities remain is probably the best place to start (though i know almost nothing about these communities at any real depth and could just be talking out of my ass). i look at old practices of forest management and other stuff and it's literally just a more sophisticated view of ecosystems and agriculture than 99% of people who goes to school for ecology and agricultural science

civilization is literally a living being and sees you as a part of it's body. if you do not pay it for a space to live in via rent or taxes you're restricted from growing things building things, reproduction (technically you can but it will snatch the body you've created for it to integrate into itself), ect. if you do not play a part in it's metabolic cycle as it devours the earth, you are denied everything you're likely to want. even once you manage to achieve this there's a thousand other mechanisms to make sure you're feeding into it's metabolism, and a thousand more for trying to capture any kids you have. it knows people are receptive to incentives and it knows how to create them and if you or your kid dont follow incentives in a predictable way they can diagnose you with a disorder and kidnap you. 90% of people are very consciously in favor of this state of affairs and those that arent are too confused about what precisely the issue is and end up wishing for a world almost exactly the same as what currently exists. the bots arent waking up. they're comfortable, and when they become uncomfortable they know how to cozy up to whatever beast can offer them protection in exchange for their labour and maybe in that process they call for things that make them feel freer like democracy or civil rights. the only liberation to be found is that in disentangling yourself from the beast and learning to live in the dangerous new ecosystem it dominates. if enough people do escape, over time i think it's very likely that there could be good reason to consider them a fundamentally different species because they're evolving in drastically different environments and if this occurs when leviathan is weakened from the natural disasters it creates it's possible that these groups could grow large enough to render an area effectively ungovernable which leads to a whole new world of possibilities, though i think they're more likely going to get exterminated by disease or bureaucracy

@exiliaex those marxists just want leviathan to have a better brain, nothing more

i'm not sure i actually like most of the people around me and i'm fairly certain most of them only liked me because i used to produce rhetoric that was useful to them and lost their attention when i stopped doing so as much. i only want to invest time in the people who want to understand and explore the world with me, not dance in the discourse in ways that please others