doe @exiliaex@masto.anarch.cc

obviously, this is the standard Dem model. like the way they talked about gay people and gay marriage before the courts ruled it was legal.

but god this is so far behind the times. when i started HRT nearly 10 years ago it was on an informed consent model. no need for therapist notes. no psych evals. just me, walking into planned parenthood, and telling them what i wanted, and them telling me the risks and changes associated.

Kamala was asked about trans people, whether we should have "gender-affirming care" in this country. Her answer was that we should "follow the law" - after a followup question she iterated that it's "a decision that doctors will make in terms of what is medically necessary"

i'm thinking about this stuff because i saw Kamala was asked about trans healthcare and how unsatisfying her answer felt.

i then re-identified myself a few years later - it/its pronouns, changed my name to doe - because "girl" and "woman" felt like a cage too. it was like opening a world of possibility and then drawing a box on the floor while saying "if i leave this box i'll die." i still consider myself a woman in many ways, but opened it up for myself.

i transitioned because "boy" and "man" felt like a cage. because i had all of these feelings for so long that i couldn't express - and with transitioning, i could.

when it came to gender discourses i was always interested in empathizing with the vastly varied ways people can present themselves. the unique contexts and situations we find ourselves in, separate from the models designed to organize us. in every discourse about gender i was trying to open doors to possibility.

as someone who has had a longtime interest in movements against injustice, someone who discovered radical leftism and anarchism in their late teens, i was continuously trying to bring notions of self-organization, direct action, and change through resistance against structures that harm us into various discourses.

thinking about the role i was previously trying to play in online discourses and how much it feels like i failed in the spaces i was in.

in other, completely unrelated news - the new Vic Berger trump supercut is very funny and is one of the only things i've ever seen that made me empathize with trump as a human being (while still despising him and everything he stands for, of course)

the real problem with megalopolis is that it needed to be screened with a 30 minute supercut of trump's mar-a-lago escapades preceding the movie

you're on a "static website"? you mean you're rereading the same email over and over again?

oh you think you're reading a "thread" on a "forum" or worse, a social media feed? cute.

the internet has been nothing but emails the whole time

they're still too scared to come to my hands or arm. i want to get them past that. i'm not really scared of their claws hurting me, i've called them over to my bare arm before - but i'm still thinking about getting a falconry glove and perhaps a well shaped stick with a perch for them. i'm thinking they might be more comfortable with a perch i'm holding than my arm...

i love my crows, i love how developing a communication with them has changed our interactions over time. i love how careful they are. they are so goddamn cute

final thoughts:

this movie is "Spider-Man: Master of the Biopolitical Order"

it's, presumably, about how The Old Spidermen were just violent and beat their villains to death, but This Spiderman is Different, and he's going to cure them (without any sort of communication or correspondence about what 'cure' means in this context, and inevitably, some of the villains resisting this 'cure' notion)

i said the movie was having a discourse with the past that we experienced - i said it that way because the movie does no work to establish this as "spiderman's past" we don't have any stakes for who these villains are, why we care about them. the first time the Other Peters meet MCU peter, it's because aunt may died and he's off in his Special Alone Spot. each spiderman gives a spiel about managing the sadness that comes with being spiderman, and how revenge isn't the answer. but that all comes WAY after MCU-peter has already had multiple interactions with the villains, after he's already decided he needs to cure them all.

but think about what this undoes! sam raimi-spiderman didn't fail doc ock! he saved him in his last moments! he reached the scientist who wanted to make the world a better place, got him to see that his plans had become destructive, that he was being manipulated by the machines integrated into his spine - manipulated by the reckless pursuit of his goals, beyond the reason for his goals. doc ock's last moments were moments of self-sacrifice.

this could be mitigated if we had our spider-men come together before they interact with the villains, so they can tell us why *they* carry these villains with them still, what they feel ashamed for not having done right.

this movie is a mess of ADR and interactions between characters that don't feel like they're standing in the same country, let alone the same room, relying solely on rememberries to goad you on. eat your slop.

3 peters whos characterizations are completely indistinguishable aside from andrew garfield being self hatey?

i get its supposed to be Young-Naive peter, Lost-in-Loss peter, and Older-Maturer-Has His Shit Together peter but it does notttt come across like that.

that couldn't have been a hotter heap of garbage if it tried

okay after a break i finished the movie and what the fuck

blade runner?